The past 7 days I have:
finished cleaning out closets and organizing kids clothing
finally dusted my house and cleaned bathrooms
met with two brides for wedding flowers
scheduled appointments with two other brides
ran errands to 10 different stores
kissed jacob a million times
planned, prepared & conducted 3 primary meetings
read books with emily
prepared to throw a baby shower
bought emily's birthday presents
taken pictures of emily & jacob
posted on my ridiculously outdated blog
went on a date with jeff
made emily's birthday party invites and mailed
registered for swimming lessons
made cookies
made a note to sign up for soccer and ballet
before the next session fills up
went to the grocery store 3 times
thought and pondered and prayed about who to call to numerous primary positions
planned jeff's birthday and party
dug through hiding place to find his birthday gift that I hid 2 months ago
posted on incredibly outdated flower blog
found birthday gift for mom
shopped for father's day gifts
found birthday present for nephew
found birthday present for niece
checked completely overspent budget - dang all those june birthdays!
washed, dried, folded and put away 8 loads of laundry
squeezed in reading of incredibly good book that I can't renew
went to lagoon
finished cleaning out the primary closet
talked to sisters and mom ... numerous times
talked to friend for the first time in months
smelled the rain
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I have a tendancy to get caught up in my 'to do' lists and forget about the important things. There are brief times when I can put things aside and just enjoy the sweet moments. But the majority of the time I become overwhelmed with all I have to do and all that I'm not getting done and I get so frustrated and stressed that I just don't take the time to enjoy the good things. I decide to let Emily watch one more "Tigger and Pooh" so I can fold one more load of laundry or check my email. I don't think that makes me a horrible person. I just unfortunately miss the opportunity to play with Emily. And who knows how much longer she'll want to play with me.
A friend was just diagnosed with cancer. Hopefully treatable and not too life threatening. But still earth shattering. She says that her whole perspective on life has changed. I can see why. Her news has made me stop and realize how many of the good, small, sweet and simple things I take for granted and/or miss.
I want to start making a daily post on my joys for the day and in so doing I will be forced to stop and remember to smell the roses. Because if I'm held accountable here and know others will be 'checking up on me', then maybe I'll remember that sitting outside and eating popsicles with Emily is sometimes more important than running numbers for a flower quote.