Holbrook Family: Warning: May Start Crying At Anytime

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Warning: May Start Crying At Anytime

We plan to list our home in the next week or so. For the past month I have been emptying drawers, cupboards and closets and boxing up things we don't use on a daily basis. I'm continually amazed at how much stuff we have succeeded in cramming into our little home. For a couple of weeks we were continuously winding our way through a sea of boxes. When you're already tight on space, you quickly run out of places to store boxes. So after a while I was stuck. I couldn't pack up or move forward until we moved some things out. We asked a few close friends in the ward and my dad and brother to come help move things to storage. I couldn't wait to free up my hallway and office and finally have my home 'back'. But the next morning I realized that Jeff moved more than just boxes the night before. He took a part of our home with him. I've been missing a part of me ever since. Upon this realization I scrambled to look for something that was still intact and could give me stability for the upcoming months till we officially moved out and were prepared to start a new chapter in our lives. Naturally I turned to primary.

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We had a special stake meeting to realign ward boundaries on Sunday. And when they said realign, what they really meant was they were dissolving our ward and breaking us all up. With no warning we were all just suddenly released and shipped off to different wards. It's not like we've just been released from our callings - because when that happens you can still see everyone on Sundays, even if you're not still working with them. And it's not like we've already moved away from the ward and can go back and visit friends. No, it's much worse than that. We have no where to go back to. My complex and one other (that only has a handful of active LDS homes) were not only sent to a different ward, but a completely different building. No passing a familiar face in the hall. No seeing any of my primary kids anymore - Emily is the only kid moving into this new primary. I've cried for several days. I just wasn't ready to say goodbye yet.

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Our new ward has already had 3 functions this week. They're making a great effort to help us feel welcome and included. Which is really nice. But I have to admit I'm kind of grudgingly accepting it. I miss my primary kids. I miss my presidency. I miss my Bishop. I miss my friends. I know change is a necessary thing in life. I've received confirmation that listing our house and moving is right. And I've also received confirmation that the ward breaking up is right. However it doesn't mean any of this is easy. We have several months of limbo ahead of us -not fully putting our hearts into a ward that we'll be leaving in a few months and living in a house that's only partially here. I never do well with waiting. Maybe that's why God keeps testing my patience.

7 comments:

Heather said...: Reminds me of our life the past year. . . It is hard when you are constantly going through big changes and the end of it seems so far away. Good luck, and I hope this next little while goes by quickly for you until you can adjust to a new normal!; August 12, 2010 at 9:14 PM
cleverly content said...: I hear you. I wish being reminded that "change is never easy" made it easier some how. I will have to call and commiserate with you in a month as we pack up and move, and I have to say adios to my YW.

Thinking of you.; August 13, 2010 at 9:17 AM
Johnson's said...: Oh no. That is very sad news. And it does makes me want to cry...

I wish you the best of luck. I hope that your selling/buying process goes quickly so you can go back to 'living a normal life.'; August 13, 2010 at 7:41 PM
Johnson's said...: Random ?:
Is it ok that I copy your idea of "Emily-isms"
If so...What gadget do you use to post them???
Thanks.
Jenn; August 15, 2010 at 11:00 PM
Tim and Heidi said...: I'm feeling the same way. It's no fun at all.; August 16, 2010 at 5:16 PM
CHAR said...: Hey Becca! This ward situation is sad! I am going to miss having you in the ward. I was also very sad that I was never able to say goodbye to my primary kids (Since we were out of town the 2 weeks when this all went down).; August 24, 2010 at 3:33 AM
Marli said...: Rebecca, I'm so sorry. That really does stink. Maybe I will just go call you and check on you. Oh, and you can always come live by us. :) Just saying.; August 26, 2010 at 6:09 PM

Emilyisms

2.22.13 ~ "Ahh! You exasperate me!"

3.06.13 ~ “This has been a horrible day! I didn't want to get up early. I didn't want to go to school. I didn't want to go to gymnastics. And Jacob just ate my goldfish!"

5.18.13 ~ Em: "What's that noise?" Jeff:"It's to let you know you're drifting and driving off the road.” Bec: "Or to wake you up if you're starting to fall asleep." Em: "But what if you're a deep sleeper?"

5.24.13 ~ Looking at a treasure map: "This is puzzling."

6.01.13 ~ To Gma H: "Will you be lonely when we move?"

6.01.13 ~ Em: "Do I have to get married?" Bec: "No. You don't have to. Why? Do you not want to?" Em: *sigh* "I like my last name."

7.28.13 ~ Em: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Jinks! You owe me a soda!" Jeff: "Em, do you know what a soda is?" Em: "Yup. Like Sprite, Root Beer, and Dr. Coke."

8.21.13 ~ "Jacob, you need to listen in school or you won't be smart like I am."

9.03.13 ~ Bec: "You have gum. I can smell it." Em: "Yup. And I can taste it."

9.10.13 ~ Em: "Are we going to Red Robin?" Jeff: "Why would we want to go there?" Em: "Oh! I know that voice!" Then as Jeff turned into RR parking lot Em said, "Ha! I knew it!"

9.29.13 ~ Em: "Oh Yummy!" Jeff: "I thought you didn't like potato chips." Em: "Apparently I do now."

10.09.13 ~ Bec: "You're a smart boy Jacob." Em: "Maybe he'll be like me!"

2.18.14 ~ While eating a cupcake: "I love frosting. It just tickles the roof of my mouth."

Jacobisms

3.04.13 ~ Bec:"Brrr! Your hands are freezing! Were you cold while we were outside?" J:"Yup." Bec: "Why didn't you tell me?"J: "Cause me couldn't find my pockets. They were hiding."

3.05.13 ~ Talking about missions: Bec: "Matthew went to England. Daddy went to Brazil. Where do you want to go?" J: "On a hike."

3.17.13 ~ Bec:"Whoa! You have a messy face. We need to wash you off." J:"No. My tongue's washing me off."

3.21.13 ~ Bec:"Jacob, please don't. You're not supposed to climb on that." J:"Emily does." Bec:"Uh-oh, we better spank her bum." J:"Yeah! Two times!"

8.22.13 ~ On the 2nd day of school:"Mommy, we lost Emily. we need to find her."

9.01.13 "Mom, my toot left a mark in my underwear."

9.04.13 ~ Bec: "You have preschool tomorrow." J: "Yup. All by myself!" Bec:"All by yourself?! Are you big enough for that?" J: "Yup. I have a big boy bed so I'm big."

9.07.13 ~ Eating breakfast burritos:"Mom, my wrap around is undoing."

9.18.13 ~ Eliza was jumping in her crib:"Mom! Liza's a kangaroo!"

9.18.13 ~ "I'm super angry right now."

9.21.13 ~ "You're the best-est mommy in the whole world."

9.25.13 ~ "Mom, you're the wicked king. And I'm Liza's dad."

10.01.13 ~ "I have a song stuck in my head. I don't want anyone to hear it so I'm going to leave it there."

10.13.13 ~ "It's raining cats & dogs. ... Lots of cats & dogs."

10.14.13 ~ "Mommy, me & Liza love you."

11.11.13 ~ "Mom! Did you see my awesome strength!? I can lift heavy things!"

11.16.13 ~ Bec:"You're pretty smart." Jeff: "No, you're super smart."Jacob: "Yup! Daddy got it right!"

12.08.13 ~ J: "I'm not going to be a kid." Jeff: "You're not?" J: "Nope. I'm going to grow up and be a dad."

12.15.13 ~ Jeff:"Have you been playing with Batman?" J: "Yep. And Robin Hood. Why isn't his name Red Robin?"

12.24.13 ~ Em & J had eye infections and needed drops.Jeff: "Ok, who's first?" J: "Emily because she's brave. Not me because I cry."

12.28.13 ~ "Liza, I'm glad I have a baby sister."

12.29.13 ~ Bec:"Jacob, why are you still wearing your jacket?" J: "Because if you want to you can."

1.06.14 ~ After listening to a Mozart song for a few minutes: "Mom? Who's being chased?"

1.08.14 ~ "Mom!" *sigh* "That's terrible!"

1.13.14 ~ Bec: "You get what you get..."J: "And you not cry."

1.13.14 ~ "Mom, mmm-ini wheats starts with cow?"

1.27.14 ~ After 'reading' something: Bec: "Hey! How did you know that's what that said?" J:"I don't know. Cause I'm super smart."

2.02.14 ~ While playing with Little People: ~ J: "Mom, where's the mom & baby?" Bec: "I don't know." J: "Maybe they're missing. Maybe when we were at Grandma & Grandpa's a monster came to our house & took them."

2.18.14 ~ J: "Mom, I'm never going to sell Liza." Bec:"You're not?" J:"Nope. Cause she makes me happy."

2.19.14 ~ After Jacob farted: Jeff:"Toot bum." J with a quizzical look, "Dad, why did you just call me tuba?"

2.20.14 ~ Bec: "What sports do you want to do?" J: "Baseball, soccer, basketball, football, ... and skeleton. But not fast skeleton. Slow skeleton. Because fast skeleton makes my tummy hurt."